The Porn Star Experience

Apparently i can provide a porn star experience. Now i know i usually tout myself as a GFE. I get personal and intimate with my clients. I'm responsive and present. Its what i do and I'm pretty damn good at it. Oh my last trip to Albany i was booked by a new client who was giving me to himself for his birthday. I wouldn't call him a "hobbyist" just a young guy looking to treat himself to some hassle free Jenny lovin'. The appointment almost feel though when when he saw on my FAQ's that i was a former Pro Domme as being dominated wasn't what this young man had on his agenda, as i was to find out. I assured him that there was a reason i was no longer a Domme and if he would like to be the one "large and in charge" in our encounter that i was cool with that. He took the leap and booked the appointment.

He arrived at my hotel, all 6'5" of him and i was quite pleased as its slightly unusual to have such a strapping young man cross my path, especially in Albany. I was even more pleased after the small talk was over and i was naked bent over my hotel bed getting slammed fucked by my new friend and his giant cock.

His telling me he was interested in being in charge was my cue to be the submissive fuck doll i knew he wanted. I don't always get into that kinda of session but i did this time. It was a bang brothers video reenacted right there in my upstate NY hotel room. No pussy was left un-pounded, no cock was left un-sucked, no face was left un-fucked and no stone was left unturned. I was properly screwed buy a cute guy with a large throbbing hot cock and i liked it.

The best part was that this young man was such a sweet guy, cute, and oh so tall. I just adore it when a sweet, respectful, NICE guy can tun you into a well fucked tart... in no time flat.

Put A Rubber On Your Willy

I had a conversation with a male friend about his latest relationship going south. In the course of this conversation he mentioned how they had a pregnancy scare. So i asked "did the condom break or something" i then found out that birth control wasn't something he generally used. I was taken back a bit. I thought in this day and age everyone wrapped it up.

Skip ahead to a conversation with one of my best civvie girlfriends, she's been traumatic relationship free for about 5/6 months now and has been casually hooking up with many hot boys (a necessary part of getting over the old guy) she then tells me a rather torrid tale of her screwing some hot guy on her front porch after being out watching a band..... SANS CONDOM. I was pretty fucking pissed off at her. I reminded her that if she were to get "The Herps" all that casual fucking would come to a screeching halt, not to mention the likelihood of catching something more serious. She was generally sheepish about it but her rational ... its not easy to have condoms on you, or how expensive they are. excuses, excuses, excuses.

The other day i saw a client who tried to convince me to fuck him bareback. I refused, he was rather persistent, i still refused. It totally ruined the session, I couldn't get into it, i kept checking to make sure he didn't slip off the condom and try to trick me. I mean like every fucking 2 mins i was checking, I wont ever, ever, ever, be seeing him again. I told my best escort pal all about him, she was as pissed as i was about his bullshit and sympathised with my situation. We've all come across some nasty pig in a work situation who thinks they are so special that we will forgo our well thought out rules and screw them bare. As fucking if.

Are escorts the only sexually responsible people out there? I am very careful and sexually responsible not only for my own health but because i want to protect the health of the man in my life. But even before i was involved with him i would never think of NOT wrapping that shit up. Maybe its because i fuck for a living that I'm responsible about it, because ive been confronted with what i do and I've examined the risks. I've thought about them, I've thought about ways to to minimize them. I don't personally know any escorts that don't take precautions about their health, that don't get tested on a regular basis, that don't bitch and moan about how much they HAVE to spend on condoms, std testing, etc. It seems that my real world non sex worker friends are pretty damn casual about their sexual health, they are sleeping around (a lot!) and taking amazing risks.

Hey I'm all for sleeping around, I'm just for doing it responsibly. I mean how hard is it in this day and age to have a rubber on you and to fucking use it, i mean good god you don't know where that dick has been!

If i was a firefly i'd light up my ass at night!

Green Porno: Is a series of short films inspired by the bizarre and often weird way insects and other creatures .... do it. It was conceived by Isabella Rossellini who's long been a favorite of mine, not only because of her infamous performance "Blue Velvet"but because shes always been a creative force. Green Porno is her directorial debut and what a way to enter the directors ring... gloves on tight, trim and lean and ready to knock your opponents block off.

Green Porno is overtly sexual, humorous, titillating and just plain beautiful to watch. It's a sneak peak into the underground sex world of creepy crawlies.

It premiered at the Sundance film festival and the Berlin and Tribeca film festivals and now you can even get it on your mobile phone (if you have Helio). In fact it was designed with the tiny screen in mind and many of its creative choices were made for that purpose.

Green Porno! watch them all

The promo..

Good day sunshine

Love is easy, relationships are hard. However the right relationship is worth all the hard work, all the late night tears and all of the mutual compromise. It's not easy being an escort and in a serious relationship, yet i am one.

When someone surprises you and shows up unannounced at your door with treats they know will make you happy, when someone you lust after reduces you to a sexual ball of impassioned goo and proceeds to go to town on you in just they way that they know makes you quiver all over, when someone you love makes the effort to show you that they really do care about what's important to you... then you know it's a good day.

today... was a very good day

The girl cant help it

I need to get laid. I need to get pounded, screwed, have my brains fucked out. Fucked 12 ways to Sunday, up one side and down the other, until I'm exhausted and bruised. I'm not talking about client sex. Where my focus is on someone else's needs, desires and wants. I'm talking about greedy, all about me, fuck me until i cant walk sex.

Since the man in my life and i are not exactly on the same page these days, it's been a while since i gotten laid MY way. When we are on the same page, he can whisper in my ear and I'm on the edge begging for him to push me over. When were not on the same page, were not around each other much so our intimate time is scarce, fleeting and I'm left longing, cranky and feeling unloved.

It's true i equate sex to love most of the time. I know better but i cant help it. I suppose "my past" is responsible for that. Maybe i feel so in need right now because i hunted down my past and have been having to my surprise, quite a pleasant email conversation with him for the last few days. It's left me confused, sad and strangely hopeful. I'm quite certain my ability to be a escort are rooted in that first adult relationship, i had with "my past".

So my solution... work. keep my mind off my animal drive to have greedy all about me sex. To distract my body with my brain. I have 4 photo-shoots to finish by Monday of next week. So i do have my work cut out for me. That much work in such a short time should be keeping my mind off my pussy and off my past and on my goal, But its not.

I can't help it... i just cant help it.

The Girlfreind Exprience Or The Big Show

Being a GFE escort is a lot like being an actress. We perform for you or that’s what the general line of thinking is. I feel it’s something different. It doesn’t mean I don’t perform but maybe not in the way it’s normally thought of.

I have formal theater training in my background. I have been cut out of some of your favorite Hollywood films. I have danced in videos you’ve seen on MTV and been involved with prestigious summer stock programs. Shhh don't tell.

All this helps me in my life as a GFE escort. It also helped me in pitch meetings when I was in the nasty world of advertising, but I digress.

I’m a method GFE actress not so much in the way of Stanislavski but more Uta Hagen and the use of substitution. In fact I had dinner with Uta once a long time ago, purely by accident and she spoke to me about the use of substitution and it made a life long lasting impression on me. Not only that this great actress and acting coach would take the time to talk to a kid about her craft but that she spoke so clearly and from the heart. I will be forever grateful to her for that.

As a GFE I want to find the moment, relive the sense memory when I am being intimate with a stranger who maybe i'm not very attracted to. I have to find a way to make the attraction happen, if only for a brief moment in time. It’s a representational acting relationship between me (the escort) and my audience (the client). Much like an actor on film/stage needs to make his audience feel its real. So do I. Only I do it naked in Heels and sometimes with a cock in my mouth ;)

Finding the connection is not always easy and if I didn’t have my theater training I’m sure it would be much, much harder. I don’t usually put on the “big show” where I scream and moan and dirty talk up a storm (though im not saying that’s never happened) to me that’s not real. Its not who I am as a sexual creature. I leave that kind of performance up to the PSE girls (they do it so well!) I have a quieter more intimate approach; I need to find a way inside to make it as real for me as possible and especially as real and connected as I can for my partner de jour.

Though I will use tried and true theater techniques to get to my goal. Its almost second nature now I hardly even think about it, like Nike… I just do it.

From the outside in – concentrate on the physical and let my body guide me to the conclusion

From the inside out – think of something that invokes the feeling I want to portray and let that guide me to the conclusion.

It’s important to me that i'm in the moment, that i'm as real as I can be, as venerable and as open as possible when I attempt to make a connection in a physical/emotional way with a stranger and I usually do succeed, at the very least I try to.

See and here you thought it was just about the fucking…

In the future everyone will be world-famous for fifteen minutes

I used to be very involved in a small local provider and hobbyist message board in L.A. I recently decided to take a break. Not only because I have knowledge that it’s being watched closely by law enforcement but because its slant has became increasing anti female. I mean who needs to participate on a message board where at every turn you have to defend who you are and what you chose to do to a bunch of small minded woman hating troglodytes. It used to be a nice community of like-minded folks but without moderation and a lack of control and interest by the site owners it has degenerated into a microcosm of misogynistic slime and ooze. Who needs that? I know I don’t. I walked away.

It wasn’t worth the effort any longer, so once day I just stopped posting. I stopped pointing out the obvious, adding my humor, perspective and thoughts to a hooker message board i had been involved with for years.

It took about a week before people noticed I wasn’t contributing. Threads where started about my absence about two weeks into my departure. Little You Tube videos (amateurishly made) were created to discuss “where was Jenny” I was more the talk of the cyber town when I wasn’t there, then when I was there helping new people get acclimated, pointing new providers in the direction of safety information, posting my availability and sharing my unique point of view on being a online message board hooker.

I would occasionally read this local board and when I got an email from friends alerting me to yet another topic about ….me, Jenny. I would read and laugh. They didn’t have anything to talk about without me. They had theories as to what I was doing, where did I go, what happened to me. I wouldn’t have been surprised of there was a betting pool all about me.

Just this morning I was once again alerted to another topic about, you guessed it, ME. Too funny, it’s like im their god, their ruler they have nothing to talk about if im not there good, bad or indifferent… they are speechless, directionless and lost with out me. How sad is that.

Its like im Elvis, im legendary. Soon there will be Jenny sightings all over Kalamazoo Michigan. Apparently I made quite the impression that even after weeks and weeks if removing myself from participation that the main topic if conversation on this small local message board about sex for money is still… JENNY DEMILO.

The funny thing is that I have a pretty high profile. I am a regular participant on a national and well-known review board. I have this blog, which I just took mainstream, and my other blog that is directed at an escort audience. I have ads on national escort mall sights and I participate on other small local boards in other cities. I just stopped posting on THAT board. The one where they have contempt for women, where every other thread’s theme is ”bad whores, bad, bad whores” I really thought no once would notice my absence, I didn’t think I had that big of an influence on the people of that local board. I couldn’t have been more wrong. By removing myself and deciding to not participate I have elevated myself to a much higher status in those small minds and become quite the legend. More talked about, more thought about and more posted about then when I was active and involved… I really am a legendary on this nothing little board… and not only in my own mind!

Time to go buy a bedazzled jumpsuit!

Break it on down

I get asked a lot “who sees escorts”? Most people think its what they see on TV streetwalkers like on HBO’s hookers on the point who see convicts who just need to bust a nut after being locked up for 7 to10. I guess thats one element but i've never experienced it.

In my experience it really breaks down like this …

90% are married or involved men. They are missing something in their relationships (intimacy, sex, variety maybe all of it) and they rationalize to themselves that it’s not “cheating” because they are paying for it.

The guy who’s crossing it off their list of things to do, like skydiving. If it were legal he’d go once in a while. He’s usually single and in a dating dry spell. The casual user ;)

The guys who would never get laid without it. Nice guys, NO game. They are uncomfortable around women; they don’t look you in the eye. They will never be the guys who pick up the tasty piece of ass at the bar. So he rents her by the hour.

Then there’s the ones that I do my best to screen out. They always need to tell you how attractive they are. They make a point of letting you know that they don’t “have” to pay for it and usually they're right. They are good-looking guys with lots of game and plenty of charm. They could go out and pick up hot girls every night of the week. They talk the talk and walk the walk. They call an escort because they are lazy. As a result they are resentful they have a “service me” attitude they are lazy lovers and treat you like a whore. yuck.

They are your brothers, your husbands, your fathers, and your sons. They are rich, poor and everything in between. They are of every color of the human rainbow All kinds of men hire escorts.

If they didn’t... i'd be out of a job!

How to get in my pants without paying

I get this a lot. “ Yo baby we should hook up” umm okay, pass my screening and how much time do you want to pay for? oh you don’t want to pay for my time? You just want me to give it away to you for free… Why, cuz you’re special?

Here’s a handy, dandy list to help you see if you qualify for a tasty bite of Jenny sans greenbacks.

1. You must host, at your home.
-There is no way i'm meeting you in some hotel/ motel, your “friends” house, your RV or your car. No we cannot go to my place. I don’t want you to know where I live.

2. Your place must be clean!
- If your place resembles a frat house, an outhouse or your mother’s basement or if you have posters haphazardly pined to the walls and dirty dishes in the sink … I'm out!

3. You must be tall
- I’m a tall girl, so you need to be taller then me. 6 foot to 6’4. I will know if your 5’9 pretending to be 6 foot tall. I always do.

4. You must be hung
- I'm talking big, fat, long, thick 8+ tasty cock. Oh and its got to be functional with no help for the little blue meanie. Viagra is cheating.

5. You must be hot.
I mean Mens Fitness hot. Not quirky hot, not once was hot, not on your way to being hot. I mean head turning hot. Oh and no tude, if you act like your hot and everyone wants you, I wont.

6. you got to be funny, I mean really funny.
-If you can’t make me laugh in between rounds of you making me squeal with delight then forget it. Nothing sexier then a man with a good sense of humor.

7. Over 30 but under 45
-I have found that as pretty as you youngsters are you just don’t know how to fuck yet. And older dudes as much as I adore you and your long practiced skills I really need a guy who is capable of fucking more then twice a day. No your mouth, hands, and collection of sex toys won’t do. I need cock.

there ya have it... the get it for free check list.

You must possess ALL these qualities. If you do then maybe you could have a shot at a free roll in the hay with Jenny. However… I cant think you’re an idiot and only an idiot would ask an escort to fuck them for free without knowing her …

Big Kiss,
Jenny

I Dont Care!

Don't tell me how cute you are! whats even worse, don't abbreviate it in an email to VGL. Ugh i hate that.

I'm a freaking ESCORT. Do you really think that telling me you're a hot guy will impress me? Maybe get you a discount? separate you from the crowd? because it doesn't. It only serves to make you look like a tool when you come on to an escort that way. It always makes me dread further communication with you. reg flag, red flag!

If appearances mattered to me do you really think i could show up sight unseen on your doorstep and make sweet, sweet love to you? or fuck you 12 ways to Sunday? provided of course that was your preference ;)

Do you really think you're the only attractive man to ever cross my path in my life as an escort? i have celebrity clients (we all do) Rock-stars pay for my time, Authors of best sellers, powerful men who run empires on occasion pay for a tasty bite of Jenny D. Never once have any of them felt the need to tell me how "good looking" they were.

What matters is how you TREAT me. Are you a nice guy, a respectful guy, a clean guy, a kind guy. Are you going to be respectful of my (very limited) boundaries? Are you going to be happy I'm there to share an intimate moment with you and looking to have a good time? or are you expecting me to put on the big show and be as fake as you are? i prefer REAL people not fake people and real people look all different kinds of ways. Fake people always gotta tell ya how hot they are.

I'm a GFE escort, a courtesan, a temptress and a muse. I'm in the happiness business. I do my best to make EVERYONE who crosses my path a happy, happy man, regardless of what the shell looks like on the outside. What you look like doesn't matter, how you treat me does.

Appearances are deceiving and those that get too wrapped up in them are often deceived!

Will you lick my armpit?

I'm sorry I don’t do that was how a responded, in my best little girl voice and my sweetest smile, trying not to give away the eww feeling that had just rushed over me.

I don’t think i've gotten that request before so maybe its not that I “don’t” lick arm pits, maybe I just didn’t want to lick this strangers hairy arm pit. I’m not sure.

During my 3 years working as an escort I don’t think i've ever come across this request before. Oh sure I get clothing requests all the time. If I can I always try to dress the part for the requested fantasy. As long as I don’t have to show up at the Ritz dressed as a pirate, peg leg, eye patch, parrot and all. Fortunately its usually just stockings and garters they are after or “dressing down” because they don’t want you walking to the door in Lucite 6 inch fuck me pumps and a skirt that barely covers your ass and put on a show for the neighbors. But will you like my armpit?… this was something new.

Is armpit licking some hot new fetish I am unaware of? Is it all the rage with some underground pit licking subculture? Are there huge armpit licking parties where people eagerly lick away? Is it the new safe sex? I used to think nothing could throw me for a loop after my 3 years of working as an escort, I thought I had seen it all but I was sadly mistaken on Saturday morning in a hip downtown hotel when the request was made…

Will you lick my armpit? Nope not today

Vote with your wallet

You hear it time and time again. You don't like a providers why of handling her business..
vote with your wallet

You don't like a providers price structure...
vote with your wallet

You don't like a providers website...
vote with your wallet

You don't like what a provider says in her blogs...
vote with your wallet.

Its great advice, providers are in this business to make money. Yeah you will hear the old "i just love to fuck" line thrown around and many of us do love to fuck but we are in this for the cash not the sex. the sex (when its good) is a bonus.

So you don't like provider or how she handles her business, vote with your wallet. Do not patronise her, do not pass go do not collect 200 dollars. It's as simple as that. if your way of thinking is the majority you will soon see that provider fade away or change how she does things because her business is falling off.

Don't dog her on the review boards at every turn and make an ass out of yourself, don't rant and rave and scream and yell. Simply vote with your wallet. Its easy to do and effective. Promote the providers you do enjoy, the ones who handle their business how you like or think they should.

Oh wait the ones screaming and yelling and ranting and raving like lunatics, the ones who feel so powerless in their own lives that they have to chase around providers on review boards and be snide and nasty to feel like a man with power, they NEVER vote with their wallets...why?

Because there is nothing in them to vote with, being an asshole is all those guys have.

Maybe those "hobbyists" (and i use that term loosely) need to start scrap booking that hobby is very affordable

I Fuck For Money

I Fuck For Money... but that doesn't make me less of a person.

I'm really getting tired of the self righteous attitudes of those that see/interact with providers. The men/clients/keyboard warriors that think because "i fuck for money" that its okay to treat me like less of a person.

I don't have feelings... how could i, i fuck for money
I have no family or friends who love me... how could i, i fuck for money.
I don't have dreams, hopes, desires... how could i, i fuck for money.

women who who fuck for money are not real. You can treat us however you want and no one will know its really YOU who's doing it.

You can seek your revenge on the high school girl who snubbed you, the checker at the market who wouldn't date you, the college girlfriend who fucked your best friend, the wife who despises you. all you need is a screen name and finally you can feel powerful, if only for a brief moment while your typing hunched over in the dark while your wife and 2 kids are asleep.

I have a big mouth. i speak my mind. i never mince words. I'm not very diplomatic... i just never have been. I was the 7 year old that stood up in a friends church and called bullshit when they tried to tell me that "all women were sinners" so now that I'm grown and have somehow ended up being a provider (a damn good one BTW) I need to change who i am to placate the same small minds and backward attitudes I've been battling all my life?

If i wanted to have to be diplomatic in my dealings with small minds i would have stayed in advertising with the rest of the corporate whores.

Yet i get labeled a trouble maker when i, point out the obvious, fight back or god forbid, speak my mind. I'm not a troublemaker, I'M A FUCKING MALCONTENT.

My name is Jenny DeMilo and i am a message board hooker

Kisses,
Jenny