"It'll be just like starting over"

I don't much believe in New Years resolutions but I do believe in new beginnings. I don't think you have to wait for the new year to make changes in your life.

I started to make changes in my life a few months ago, as a result my availability as an escort has been severely limited. I've been working in my chosen field the one I went to college for, the one I abandoned years back and needed a much needed break from. I just dont have time to rock worlds they way I used to, I have deadlines, meetings and I'm accountable to people other than myself. I didn't know how much I missed my old life until i started to get back to it.

I also began to take my health more seriously. Listening to and taking my doctors advice on changing my diet to help manage my life long struggle with a seizure disorder. I've gone no carb, which is not easy to do but man oh man does it work. I feel better, I look better and I haven't had a seizure since I've eliminated carbohydrates from my diet.

My personal life has also evolved, it's exciting and as is my custom challenging. I never do things the easy way. My relationship is long distance which can be heartbreaking at times. I'm also a fiercely independent person and with all the changes I'm making I might need to ease into being accountable full time to another person. Maybe the long distance thing is not so bad after all. It sure does make you really think about what you want out of/from another person and be direct and communicative. As opposed to just falling into something with someone and letting it take a course.

So back to resolutions, they really are just ways to make changes for the better. You don't need a time of year, a deadline or a reason to do that. You don't need to make a declaration or a pronouncement you just need to take baby steps and set obtainable goals for yourself and remember not to punish yourself too much when you fail because failing is a part of learning and growing.

I should know, I fail all the time but I grow and change in the process. It's a worthwhile endeavour you really should try it some time.