"Can you tell which thing is not like the others"

When I first wrote a blog entry warning people not to believe everything on they saw on the Internets and that fake hookers walked among us, I didn't mean to start a firestorm. But that's just what happened. Who knew that so many legit, well reviewed, long time activists and respected members of the escort community also thought that the emperor wore no clothes, I know i didn't.

Soon after my article went up I was contacted and interviewed by Monica Shores for a story she was writing for Carnal Nation about sex workers who write about their lives and work and the accountability of bloggers. What happened after that, has taken on a life of its own.

I never mentioned who I thought the most egregious of the impostors was (there are a few) leaving the reader to think about reality versus fantasy, fact verses fiction. The whole point of the blog post was to encourage people to question and think for themselves. Giving away who the usurper was, would be counterproductive to my goal of trying to get people to use their noggins and THINK!

but to my surprise.. just like a terrorist bomber, she claimed responsibility.

My blog, twitter and brochure site were linked to her site, along with all kinds of nutty convoluted, backasswords babble, coupled with her responding to the quotes of mine that were published in the Carnal Nation story. Oh goody... web hits! Never one to look a gift horse in the mouth I welcomed my new twitter followers and crossed my fingers that the click-overs would bookmark me and come back and read again another day. Though I was pretty disappointed in the numbers. Having heard "Princess Cariboo" brag for so long about how many hits she was getting to her blog and how popular she was, I really had hoped for more traffic then I got. It was rather paltry compared to say the people linking my story about the bust in Houston (thanks fellas!)

I did however get a flurry of emails from people sharing their personal experiences of interactions with "Dr Charlotte Bach" and how they thought she was a fraud, man, cop, reporter, failed screen writer. It was pretty entertaining as these people never would have found me had Zelig not linked me and created an online scene. As I said before, I never said who I believe to be the biggest faker in the land, just that there was one.

Some have even tried to devise schemes like Mistress Matisse, she suggests that miss-fake-alot call in to Dan Savage - to what, umm prove shes got a female voice I suppose. Well hot damn! I wanna call into Dan Savage too, I've always been a huge fan of him and his work and If he hears my voice he will have to show the world that I am really Cinderella. We all know that Cinderella was female. Besides it's not like there any record of my previous work as a sexy voice over artist or podcaster to compare my voice or anyone who will recognise me as someone other than who I say I am. What a wonderful Idea. Where's his number!

Then I started getting the links... ahhh the links, truly golden. This story had legs and it was taking a walk. Let me share them with you now.

Kat Stories: This faux ho's life as a stripper doesn't ring true to real live working strippers.

There's a whole stripper forum discussion about her fake-a-bility

Seattle writer/professional dominatrix Mistress Matisse has her own take on why someone would pretend to be a sex worker... "for the attention."

Tasty Trixie: who brings up the most compelling argument pointing out Fakey McFakerson's position as a blatant unrepentant content thief. Acting much like a trick who thinks he's entitled to a freebie.

Male bloggers have even written about it calling this "David Hampton" wannabe "the worst kept secret" and writes about how on private message boards she was whispered about and laughed at.

Amber Rhea re-posted a quote from the Carnal Nation story to her tumbler

The first person to publicly question her and the most damaging accusation, bringing up her self proclaimed inappropriate behavior with minors

there are tweets too
Amberlily, Kat Stories Adora Cash Zoeynym Melissa Gira Vivian DaSilva Vivian Again Furrygirl Bubbles

***My favorite tweets (added 12/23) are from BluEyedCass, model and webcam girl *** ( it's her pictures fake-o-holic was stealing and passing off as her own)

It just keeps going and i'd be surprised if this was the end of it. People have been discussing this Pierre Plantard in their private circles for a while and its just bubbling to the surface now. Is this the only fake hooker out there running around the innertubes screaming "look at me, look at me"? Naw, but she is the one that got the furthest in the charade in a long time.

Writing the truth of sex work is hard. It's not all fun and games until someone loses an eye. It's a roller coaster of emotions, it's complex and challenging. It's not a flat one trick pony of nymphomaniac fantasies... no matter what some wanna be Michael Sabo would lead you to believe.

I might be a Whore but I'm not a Hole

The email came in like any other, a response to an ad i had placed in a city, in another state i was visiting. However i hadn't received one like this in a while...

"need you by 9:00 pm tonight. if too much bullshit, foreget about it."

Well where do i sign up! emails like this usually just go straight into the trash because lets be honest I'm not a hole don't i don't enjoy being treated as one. That's exactly what this email does, let me break it down.

1. no salutation or greeting- devoid of using my name ( to further dehumanize me)
2. a demanding i need you by 9pm tonight inquiry (with no mention of screening info)
3. "if its to much bullshit..." (again implies screening with be an issue, in fact it implies everything will be an issue)
4. miss spelling of "forget" (to much trouble to even run a spell check)

Those are just the glaringly obvious red flags on this play. This goes deeper, there are two types of guys that send these kinds of emails and its my job to figure which camp i think this little piece of email joy fits into.

1. socially unaware - has ZERO idea of how to speak to women let alone escorts.
2. men who hate women

lets take the socially unaware guys. He sends an email with no social graces because he has none. No greeting, no reference to anything i request on my booking form, no info about himself, no reference actually reading my site, he probably didn't. He saw a picture, he grunted and sent the email (well at least he didn't call) If i thought the email was in this camp i could send him back an email asking for more info draw him out and see where could lead, it could turn into a successful appointment but id be aware meeting this guy in person, he would also have no social graces face to face.

Men who hate women. He hates women and treats them disrespectfully even in an email because they are all whores... yanno just like his mother. To him escorts are just a hole and you never have to be kind or polite to a hole. You don't read a holes website to get a feel from it to see if you are a good fit, cuz all you wanna do is fit your dick in a hole. You don't politely ask if you are available on short notice by 9pm this evening because you are in a tight schedule, you send a one line demand and add the caveat that "if" its to much bullshit "foreget" about it and you don't even take the time to run a spell check over it, i mean why? you're emailing a hole not a person.

It was pretty easy for me to see this email for what it was immediately and which group Mr Charm belonged to and i responded accordingly - i refuse to be treated like a hole and i will weed your dumb ass out in a heartbeat. I might be a whore but I'm not a hole and i still have and always will have the choice as to who i will share my time and body with. As much as that chaps the women haters hides i don't care, even us whores have the right to refuse them and we do... all the time.

But, but, but .. you're a whore!

So I've been reading the hooker message boards and zeroing in on this months latest trend. Men upset that the "whores" wont service them. But you're a whore you HAVE to see anyone who will pay you. You don't have choices because you're a whore. You cant refuse me for being a entitled ass hat because you're a WHORE

whore whore whore whore!

I'm quite sure i know what it is a do for a living, i mean i am the one fucking strangers in hotels for greenbacks but thanks for the reminder. The real question is, what is up with these guys? Have they been refused by the "whores" a lot? doubtful, my guess is they are the guys who when they were young men maybe in high-school maybe when thy were a little older who's greatest fear with women was/is... rejection.

They feel powerless, they are not comfortable engaging women in a real way and have eventually found themselves in the pay for play game. Because they feel that when they pay they have the power and the fact that a WHORE could reject them is one of their greatest fears. To get rejected by a women who gets paid to be there is so scary to them that they go on a rampage on message boards to try to get though to these whores and their supporters they they whores shouldn't have a choice so that they will never be in the position to be rejected by one. So they act out anonymously on message boards because if they used their real"handles" they whores might not see them so they have to do it from behind a mask and berate the whores, incite them men who generally like the whores and stomp their little feet and gnash their little teeth.

if it didn't get so tiresome or wasn't so pathetic, I'd find it funny.

it can be hurtful no matter how thick your skin is to be denigrated by a segment of a community who really should be more supportive since they engage in the same activities be it on the other side of the fence. Sex workers are often terribly put down by society we are not accepted and its disheartening when we are not accepted by our own. it can grate on you and often does.

I'm sure I'm just being an uppity whore.

There's no place like home

I'm home from my quick jaunt to Washington DC and still haven't gotten my body clock back to normal, this daylight savings thing isn't doing me any favors either. I missed the epileptic pooch and my little hipster love shack but I had such a great time that i am going back to visit DC again in a couple months. While there I went to a couple of great restaurants Marcel's where the squab was amazing and The Peacock Cafe in Georgetown and i got a tour of the Pentagon. Yup that's right i was lucky enough to get to walk around the Pentagon (with an escort of course) it was really a thrill to be there and see the largest office building in the world. Also well worth the fact that i know my info must be in yet another government database of some kind. I didn't get to do any real sight seeing like the White House or the Mall but i did get to meet up with some super sweet local girls one being the very strikingly beautiful Mylan for some nosh and a couple drinks.

My gentlemen callers were all really fun (especially the non birthday boy and my first timer i got to ruin... oh my, oh my) and i wonder is DC always like that? Is everyone always so cheerful and fun to be around or is it because of the new administration in town. Was it all doom and gloom over the last 8 years and now its like in the Wizard Of Oz when the house lands on the Wicked Witch Of The East and the doors open to a beautiful Technicolor other world. Even though it was amazingly cold and i seem to have brought snow with me again, like i did when i went to Boston. I still really enjoyed myself and had to stifle my canary eating grin every time my travel companions were cranky and ready to go home, I could have stayed another week without a second thought.

Oh DC i shall return soon but there is.... no place like home.

A wild beast may wound your body...

Mean girls are abundant in the world of escorts. Frenimies abound. Its hard to find real friends who are hookers, sometimes when you think you have a real friend you don't. In retrospect you realize that's the relationship was draining and unsatisfying for a number of reasons, the least of which you were just desperate for understanding from someone who shares your unique experiences and ultimately got sucked in by some emotional vampire, with issue after issue. In the end you realize you spent the bulk of your "friendship" dealing with, listening to and fixing someone else's problems. I have seen this over and over with other women and i have lived it myself.

Lets face it lots of fucked up women are escorts, this business attracts crazy women. The lifestyle is fast paced and can be excessive, its a very hard business to say grounded in. No real hours, you don't live on a schedule, have no regular income, its feast or famine. Many girls don't have a real home and live out of suitcases, never having a place to call their own, a place to be responsible for. The transient effect makes vulnerable to crazy people down right looped .

I am like a magnet to those types of female friendships. I have to really work hard not to get sucked into situations like that. I fail often. In the real word when a friendship fails its easier to walk away, that's not to say its not painful but walking away is what most people do. You go your way, i go mine. When friendship with a crazy escort fails, you better watch your back. Because someone that has lost touch with the real world such a way as to not even be capable of maintaining the responsibility of a modest place to live, surly isn't capable of walking away from a broken friendship and moving on. No matter how much you hope they will.

They come back over and over like a bad penny... there are long standing feuds. bad feelings that last years, I've seen it destroy people. Eat at them up, hurt them.. good people too.

You might ask why i wrote this, yes i have my own personal saga with a crazy escort friendship that failed and try as i might to find a middle ground a way to coexist without there being constant conflict i find myself at a loss. I'm out of ideas. the animosity on her side is rampant and vile and mean. Ive said nothing about my struggle with this for 7 long months except to seek advise from the 2 people who i trust most. Both have tried to give me sound advice about letting it go moving on. Though how i accomplish that when I'm constantly having to ward off bad juju is beyond me right now.

I found myself tonight thinking back to my teen-aged Buddhist household and trying to employ the techniques i learned then.. like chanting for her happiness. I know it sounds silly but if someone is happy then they are not exactly likely to put in the energy to try to fuck with your life. So i did, i don't know if it did anything except to make me feel a little more in control of the situation. Then i sat down to write this with a clear head .

I guess i just need to be the ball more often.

Hit The Road Jack...

I decided to start touring earlier then i previously planned. I'm going out on the road in a few days with the ever perky Audrey Trouble. I got ancy and twitchy to get started, what can i say. So first stop is Boston, MA. I've never been and though it will be extra cold ( i mean extra, extra cold for a Cali girl like me) i want to try to get out and do at least one Boston-ish kinda thing. I don't want my first trip to be just seeing the 4 walls of my hotel... and a lot of cock. However I have no idea what to do. Should i see something historical, or go to a famous Boston restaurant, reenact the Boston tea party in my panties and fuck me pumps? I'm sure i will figure it out eventually. I know while I'm there I'm gonna take some snappies (that's photos to the unaware) of Heather Jana, local Bostonian hottie for hire, so that will be fun.

After Boston ... Vegas. Always a fun place for me. I'll be there the week after Superbowl plus it's the week of the concrete and tile conventions. That means manly men will abound and those types really do appreciate a dirty girl like myself.

After Vegas I'm home for a little bit and i get to spend some quality time with the pooch... oh and the main man before i head out once again to places unknown and destinations exotic.. okay maybe just destinations Midwestern.

I just hope i dont see a man on the wing of the plane, cuz that would be a nightmare at 20,000 feet.

Entitlement begins its consuming grind

There are rules for ad postings on message boards about hookers. They all vary to some degree or another but there are rules. Escorts must adhere to such rules or risk banishment and lose the ad venue or be subject to ridicule and public scolding by those tho know the rules inside and out. The rules are often hard to find.

I've been noticing a trend on several boards, Hobbyists (johns, tricks, clients whatever you want to call them) posting derogatory insulting comments on a escorts ad thread. The slant seems to be "you charge too much, don't you know there's a recession!!" with a good portion of "you fucking whore" implied though some don't imply the last part but come right out in say it. Classy.

A recession? really? wow i was too busy doing my nails and playing with my perpetually wet snatch to watch the news or pay attention to the world around me to notice, you don't say.

The escorts I KNOW all knew about the recession long before the disgruntled nasty comment backlash started or before the word was uttered on the evening news. Escorts are more tuned in to the ebb and flow of cash flow then any other business people i know. Seriously, they really are.

What amazes me is how these disgruntled message board cry babies think that by brow beating some escort trying to make a living by hanging her shingle out (the ad thread) will work. As if suddenly the lady is going to say oh yeas Mr. anonymous troll let me give you my services for free because i know how hard it must be for YOU out in the real world. As if WE don't live in the real world too. Its the sense entitlement i don't get. Not the disappointment that they cant afford to pay for prime pussy, i understand the disappointment. I get disappointed too when i cant afford something i want. I either forgo it or save up for it. I don't go into Tiffany's and bitch the sales people out because theres a recession on and they should lower their fucking prices because I NEED to wear that bracelet. When in actuality i don't. I can easily not wear it, just as these message board shit talkers can easily not fuck a whore.

They feel entitled to publicly bitch and moan, they try to get other shit talkers to join the fray, they try to get the lady to join the fray. If she does try to defend herself they further attempt to say "see that nasty whore doesn't deserve to get paid, cuz shes got a the nerve to defend her business" oh and they bash any male who thinks being a loud mouthed rude prick on a message board makes all hobbyists look bad.

I see this going a couple ways, its going to get worse as more men who used to be able to easily afford to screw escorts realize that they can less and less if at all, so the disgruntled will become more vocal. I also see the ladies not sitting back and taking it, its harder out there for everyone and yes that includes escorts. When you get limited access to advertise and that advertisement is sullied by some angry little man and his personal financial issues, it very likely will lead to more ladies not taking the high road and waiting for next weeks ad to go smooth but to taking on these shit talkers head to head.

So its going to get a lot nastier...mark...my...words...

So you wanna be a hooker?

Every time there's a big mainstream media article about Hookers i get contacted by young hopefuls asking for advice on how to get into the game of pay for play companionship. With Radars recent debacle (hipster hookers my ass) the amount of mail I'm getting asking for advice is off the hook. So to save myself from having to repeat myself over and over to inquiring minds i thought id share some of my words of wisdom, advice, warnings, ramblings or what ever you wanna call it.

My first bit of advice is: DON'T DO IT.
There are girls who have stellar reviews and long standing reputations who are not making ends meat right now. Wanting to get into the escort business at this time is like wanting to get into the employment game after 911, there is little work. The economy is bad and its an election year which always causes work to cease.

If you still want to brave the bad economy and heavy competition here are some things to think about.

Get a professional website: Make sure you have a stats package so you can see where your referring hits are coming from. This will be really helpful, you can see where you advertising efforts ie dollars are paying off and converting to clicks to your site. You want to work smarter not harder.

Get professional pictures: Makes all the difference in the world. Classy pictures attract, classy clients. Skanky pictures ... well you get the picture.

What will you do for money: Don't let anyone talk you out of your comfort zone ... ever.

Screen Clients: You need a way to be sure someone is who he says he is so you don't get into trouble and you need to make sure someone isn't scary to see. This is VERY important, always screen potentials. You need to become a JR private eye. You must be 100% sure of who you are seeing, if they don't screen, then don't see them. Never drop your guard no matter how broke you are. Don't get greedy.

Watch the competition: http://www.eros-guide.com look at the ads for the girls in your area, see what they charge how they present themselves. Who do you want to be?

Treat it like a business: Be professional in your dealings with others. Investments of time and money are necessary to be successful, as with any business.

Keep your personal information PERSONAL: Be careful who you trust, its an isolating business, it can get tough, you often feel like you live in a bubble and will want to reach out to others in the subculture. Chose your friends wisely. This is a cut throat business and there are lots of people who are nuts attracted to it. You are who your friends are to some degree, someone else's rep can spill over to you. Someone with your personal information can really hurt you. I was outed, its not fun, it can be devastating.

Don't quit your day job: Living off the grid is difficult, you want to appear as normal as possible. Its tiring to be an escort and have a day job but in the long run you will have more to show for it.

Besides all that, i go back to my first bit of advice... I don't recommend ANYONE do this.

It's not easy money, you work HARD for it and it takes a toll on you physically and emotionally. It makes real interpersonal relationships hard... for most, impossible. You have to lie to the people you love and care about on a daily basis and that is a very hard thing to do, it gets much harder over time, living a double life is not easy. Its a risky business (emotionally, physically) if you insist on being an escort you need to work smart and minimize your risk. Not everyone is cut out to do this, you have to be able to compartmentalize your emotions, you have to be able to reject societies stigma, its not glamour and glitz, it has its moments but this is job and a job with real risks.

Escorts are risk managers, we have to be its how we survive.

Oh Hell No!

If you live in a 5 million dollar house in the hills high above LA. If you spend half of the time you book with me bragging about your wealth and all that you have. If you expect me to be impressed with your material achievements and to visibly show you how impressed i am with many ohhs and ahhhs and oh wows and then expertly drop to my knees and suck your cock like a champ because you're such the big man on campus...

THEN FUCKING TIP ME.

I'd be much more impressed with a couple extra bucks quietly slipped in my pocket then the boat you want to blah blah blah and endless drone on about ..... while i giggle and flip my hair like the Barbie doll you mistakenly thought i was.

Im sorry but pretending like i'm impressed with your stupid stuff .... is EXTRA.

Are you a cop?

It's one of the more prevalent urban legends in the sex for money game, believing that if you ask an officer of the law straight out "are you a cop?" he or she must answer truthfully and spill his little law enforcement guts. Somehow asking that magic question will free you and you will no longer be eligible to go to the clink for doing something illegal.

Nothing could be further from the truth. Let me make this very clear.. cops are allowed to LIE. they can do all kinda of things when undercover to try to stop the bad guy (in this case consenting adults who want a little transacted naked fun) when working a drug case they can not only sell dope, but use it... what in the world makes people think that on a sex for money sting they couldn't do the same. Though i have been lucky enough to not ever have to come in contact with that side of the biz, i know ladies who have. Cops can touch you, get naked and of course LIE. I personally know a escort who after having sex with the undercover was arrested. Talk about insult to injury, his word against hers. Is that common? doubtful but that doesn't mean it can't and doesn't happen. What they can not do is entrap you, let me rephrase that. If they entrap you (ie though their actions convince you to commit a crime you were not already predisposed to) you have a good chance of getting that charge dropped at court. You still get arrested, finger printed, photographed and you still have to hire a lawyer and go to court. That solicitation charge is still on your record. Expunged records still have a footprint, so even if you go to all the expense and effort to get that charge wiped from your record someone somewhere will be able to see at some point you've been arrested.

fun huh?

Here are some interesting discussions and ridiculing of those who so blindly believe that what they've see on 70's TV shows like Starsky and Hutch and Baretta will save them from a night in the pokie.

Expert Law

Yahoo Answers

Erowid Vaults

Erowid Vaults have the most interesting and prolific one and though their slant is drugs, it's the SAME THING were talking vice.

It all boils down to there is always a risk when you ant to break the law (even a stupid one like prostitution), I'm sure for many that's part of the fun. So minimize your risk as much as you can. Ladies don't take unnecessary chances, screen your potential clients to make sure he's not only a nice guy but is who he says he is. No exceptions to your rules, it keeps you safe and free. Gents do your home work, know who it is you're seeing. That Playboy model who isn't established, doest have a website and is very explicit about her "menu" isn't really going to give you the world and then some for 150 bucks... think with the big head. It's the best way to stay out of trouble and out of the long reach of the law.

Now anyone can get sloppy or make a mistake and get caught up, its not the end of the world, it happens to the best of them.. if it does happen just wear it like a badge of honor....

But don't forget ... there is no magic question that will keep you safe and free, only using your brain can do that!

Americas Next Top Hooker

Who doesn't love Hookers and who doesn't love reality TV! I know i do.

welcome to my new show..... America's Next Top Hooker

The Pitch: a cross between Top Chef and Americas Next Top Model. 10 Ho's from all different parts of the biz, track walkers, Craig's List girls, highly reviewed escorts, high end very expensive courtesans live in a house together and compete in "Ho events" to gain the title "America's Next Top Hooker" oh and some kinda outlandish prize like money (hookers love money)... TBD ;)

The challenge events could get pretty outrageous... but for TV they might have to be toned down. Boo!

Catch Phrase: Every reality based lifestyle career game show needs a catch phrase these days. "you're fired" entered the popular vernacular and will forever be associated with Mr Trump, others maybe haven't fared so well. "this is your last cut" "please pack your knives and go" "you are NOT America's next top model" so a good catch phrase can carry a show. For Americas next top Hooker i suggest these catch phrases... (other suggestions welcome)

1. Take your envelope and go
2. leave the money on the night stand and get out
3. that was your last blow job

Networks: So of course Playboy TV is on the pitch list as well as HBO and Showtime (Showtime is the new HBO anyways) but maybe Comedy Central would have balls big enough to take a risk with this new reality based prostitution game show... even though their budgets are well known for being ridiculously low. The comedy gold possibilities are endless!

I think it could work, its got everything. Sex, sexy girls who will probably hate each other and do nasty shit to each other behind each other backs oh and sex.. of course you will need a crack legal team because anytime there is prostitution in the mix you gotta make sure all bases are covered and no one goes to the clink for a another dumb reality show .... I think the public is ready and with the success of celebrity rehab i think they will eat this new show up... hey America loves dug addicts why not hookers!

I'm pitching it i swear i am... steal my idea and die :)

Do The Math!

I have been outed. As you may have guessed Jenny DeMilo is not my real name. My personal information and un-blurry pictures were circulating among the Hobby crowd in LA. Links to an old social networking site of mine (pre escort days) was posted on a local review board. My identity on display for the world. Lucky me right.

This is my secret life, having my dazzling smile and my real contact information available to the masses does not make me a happy camper. As you may know I'm a little outspoken so I'd really like to keep my real life, the real me, separate from Miss Jenny DeMilo.

so i begin to try to make sense of this situation. First the local board was kind enough to remove the information. Okay step one done. Now how do i trace back to who would do such a dastardly thing and "out" me.

Step two: who had the information to pass out?

3 people had my information. 2 friends and one escort/porn actor who needed a release for photos i had shot of her. (damn legal documents they always want your real name)

My friends are my friends but doing my due diligence i asked them anyways. I felt like an ass having to ask people i knew cared about me such a thing but i did anyways. They said no. One was pretty hurt i would think they would do such a thing to me. i felt like a schmuck. Process of elimination leads me to the 3rd person who had my info. The escort porn actor who needed the legal release.

She's been kinda a pain in my ass for a while, getting upset when i photograph or associate with models she doesn't like or feels threatened by (and her list was growing seems she has issues with most people who own vaginas). I had spent the better part of last year distancing myself from her because i didn't care for her bad attitude and her message board antics where she would attack other women at the drop of a hat. She always had something nasty to say about another girl. Usually a skinny, pretty girl but she didn't limit her female hating to just the girls better looking then her, she was becoming a very equal opportunity hater. I didn't need to be associated with that kind of bad energy. So i backed off having any kind of dealings with her.

Again doing my due diligence i tried to email her asking her if she had outed me, my email was returned, i was blocked from sending her email. I tried to IM her i was blocked from her messenger. ummm curious.

so i went to some of the people who had been passed my information and appealed to their better sense of self to tell me who had betrayed me and been giving out my personal info. I was persistent in asking them to do the right thing. It took some time but low and behold they cracked and gave it up! It was as i had suspected the escort/porn actor who had my info on the legal release had been the culprit. It was pretty logical to come to that conclusion but now in addition to logic someone had given her up. It's not brain surgery, its pretty simple.. do the math. 3 people have the info. 2 are my friends, 1 is some crazy psycho who has a bone to pick with me and has blocked me from asking her anything about it. ummmmmmmm....

Step three: do the math
1+1=2

so now what.... whats the epilogue to the story? There's nothing that can be done about it. My info is out there. I was told by some people in the escort life much longer then i, that if i have gone this long without being outed than I've done better then most. So there's that. There's also the fact that i was raised a Buddhist and that because of that i do have a very strong belief in karma and what goes around will definitely come around. That people who are such incredible and flagrant assholes will have all the bad energy come back to them. I can only imagine who else this psycho has tried to hurt. If she would go to such lengths to try to hurt me because of something so trivial as me not refusing shoots for people she didn't like, then i can only imagine what she would do to someone who really get under her skin. She must have many perceived enemies and spend so much of her time wallowing in her negative energy. It's really kind of pathetic.

I guess the world has a lot of fucked up people in it.

I Love Meat

Had dinner last night with 3 hot chicks and one handsome man. the girls were all escorts (off the click of course) and smokin hot and the dude was the boyfriend of one of the girls. He was kind enough to pop for dinner and the food was wonderful. We ate at AJ's steak house at the Hard Rock. I had this big hunk of bloody rare steak. The sexy little minx to my left had the amazing crab legs. It was off the hook. I have to say i do love meat! ;)

Then us four girls ran around the casino for a while looking for trouble but never really finding it. The hard rock on a Friday was like being in any trendy stupid bar in West Hollywood on a weekend and i stopped going out in weho on the weekends years ago. Lots of guys in shinny shirts and girls wearing dresses that made them look like Hoes. Its funny the real hoes (us) dressed down as to not be branded hoes in public off the clock. The civvies were all pretty Hoe-ish looking. go figure. I always have fun hanging out with other girls in the biz, they get me and i never feel like i have to put on an act and watch what i say as to not slip up and accidentally let the cat out of the bag about my clandestine profession.

One more party tonight then tomorrow i get to go home and snuggle with my pooch.

The only valid censorship of ideas is the right of people not to listen.

I was checking my web stats and I noticed my blog was being linked to the small local message board I recently wrote about taking a break from. To my surprise (not really) a few of the stupider troglodytes were all up in arms about my blog entry where I was talking about how even though I wasn’t participating on that board, they just couldn’t stop talking about me

To prove how wrong I was, they linked my blog and talked, talked, talked, talked about me. Once again I am the main topic of their conversation.

Another whole thread dedicated to yours truly. This time they are stomping their little feet and holding their breath swearing up and down they don’t care one little bit about me or anything I have to say by posting about me over and over and over…. Oh the irony!

It did get me thinking though about one of my favorite things. The first amendment of the constitution

“Congress shall make no law respecting an establishment of religion, or prohibiting the free exercise thereof; or abridging the freedom of speech, or of the press; or the right of the people peaceably to assemble, and to petition the government for a redress of grievances.”

The most basic component of freedom of expression is the right of freedom of speech. The right to freedom of speech allows individuals to express themselves without interference or constraint by the government. Freedom of the press guaranteed by the first amendment is not very different from the right to freedom of speech. It allows an individual to express themselves through publication and dissemination. It is part of the constitutional protection of freedom of expression.

I don’t know if I would call my blog “the press” but it sure falls under the heading of ‘expressing myself though dissemination” and I really don’t care who doesn’t like the fact that I not only have the right to express myself but that I take the initiative and I actually do express myself and I will continue to whenever I feel like it. I am a patriot and those rights apply to me as well as those same troglodytes (and one nasty troglodyte-ette) only they choose to express themselves by grunting and scratching their crotches instead of by forming an original thought and putting pen to paper.

Yes it’s true, the first amendment is my favorite amendment to the constitution…. though I do have a little crush on the 4th.

Big kiss,
Jenny

Break it on down

I get asked a lot “who sees escorts”? Most people think its what they see on TV streetwalkers like on HBO’s hookers on the point who see convicts who just need to bust a nut after being locked up for 7 to10. I guess thats one element but i've never experienced it.

In my experience it really breaks down like this …

90% are married or involved men. They are missing something in their relationships (intimacy, sex, variety maybe all of it) and they rationalize to themselves that it’s not “cheating” because they are paying for it.

The guy who’s crossing it off their list of things to do, like skydiving. If it were legal he’d go once in a while. He’s usually single and in a dating dry spell. The casual user ;)

The guys who would never get laid without it. Nice guys, NO game. They are uncomfortable around women; they don’t look you in the eye. They will never be the guys who pick up the tasty piece of ass at the bar. So he rents her by the hour.

Then there’s the ones that I do my best to screen out. They always need to tell you how attractive they are. They make a point of letting you know that they don’t “have” to pay for it and usually they're right. They are good-looking guys with lots of game and plenty of charm. They could go out and pick up hot girls every night of the week. They talk the talk and walk the walk. They call an escort because they are lazy. As a result they are resentful they have a “service me” attitude they are lazy lovers and treat you like a whore. yuck.

They are your brothers, your husbands, your fathers, and your sons. They are rich, poor and everything in between. They are of every color of the human rainbow All kinds of men hire escorts.

If they didn’t... i'd be out of a job!