We All Shine On

I've always lived my life as if things were a Beatles song.

Everybody does have something to hide except me and my monkey, happiness is a warm gun and I really do believe all you need is love. Thinking this way has left me at worst devastated and disappointed when sadly i learned that not everyone thought the way i did and delighted and amused when my path crossed with someone kindred spirit who did.

As i got a little older i began to live my life as if things were a John Lennon song. I'm often crippled inside, I know it ain't easy and i am always trying to find someone to gimme some truth.

It was a funny little revelation i made on my birthday this year - i wonder do other people live their lives like they are lyrics of songs. Maybe they do any maybe they don't or just maybe they do but they are to paralyzed by life to recognize it. It might also explain my strange attachment to apples...

Like the moon and the stars and the sun

Busted In Houston Texas

Another big escort agency got busted. This time in Houston. The last big bust was in Arizona. this time a couple was arrested for running the "prostitution ring" and it was another long investigation, 2 years long, that's long. The female owner called herself the "Heidi Fleiss" of Huston. lets hope not Heidi got busted for having a big mouth and has since fallen into hard, hard times and looks like she will never recover. Drug addiction will do that to you. I have always had a soft spot for Heidi, our paths have crossed much over my lifetime and though i would never presume to call her a "friend" maybe a long ago before i was ever an escort frenemy would be more appropriate title. I hope some day she really does get it together and can live the rest of her life out happy and healthy.

So back to Houston. Its funny because i was just doing some research into Texas for touring, and i was on the fence about going there. With ASPD the local Texas escort website being down for months after their hacking and the fact that rates tend to be lower in Texas i wasn't sure it was for me. Now with this latest news i know I'm not going to tour Texas. This very well could shut down Houston for escorts for quite a while if it really is as big a bust as the media is making it out to be. Az is a dead state and hasn't even come close to bouncing back after the huge bust there last year.

The backlash of this will be the "screening issue" the cops in Houston has this agencies client list. They are making much hulabalu out of it, its large (1500 names large) and as will all guys that can afford 350 a pop or more to see a hooker, its reported to have some prominent Houston names on it.

It makes clients or potential clients scared to screen in fear that their name will be on a client list in the future. Lets get a few things straight, when you use an agency to see a hooker, you take on certain risks, mostly the risk is of a bait and switch or upsell situation, because most agencies are not flat fee legit gfe agencies. However there are some out there and with those your risk is that they screen you to make sure you are not law enforcement or a crazy kookoo who wants to hurt their girls. Which they should do, that's good business and its safety driven. Here's the downside though, Agencies look like a tasty yummy dessert to Law enforcement. They love to bust them. They look good to their communities for "cleaning them up" and they they make a HUGE media splash, it looks like they are doing their job and earning their paychecks. That is a major consideration that most clients don't take into consideration when they call an escort agency. Its the one they should consider the most if they are worried that their name in the local paper on a "johns list" might i don't know... ruin their marriages and lives.

In contrast that risk is not something you take on when you give your screening info to a legit reputable INDEPENDENT provider. No police agency is going to spend 2 years of tax payer money spear heading an investigation into one little independent girl for a misdemeanor prostitution bust where she will be released in most cases on a 250.00 bond or ORO in 24 hours, provided shes got no warrants or priors. I'm not saying there is no risk, there is never NO risk in this game.The trick is to minimize the risk weigh the consequences . So if the consequences of your name being on an agencies "trick list" is too much for you then keep it in your pants and screw your wife or take a calculated lesser risk and see an independent escort with a good reputation.

yanno... like me.

There's no place like home

I'm home from my quick jaunt to Washington DC and still haven't gotten my body clock back to normal, this daylight savings thing isn't doing me any favors either. I missed the epileptic pooch and my little hipster love shack but I had such a great time that i am going back to visit DC again in a couple months. While there I went to a couple of great restaurants Marcel's where the squab was amazing and The Peacock Cafe in Georgetown and i got a tour of the Pentagon. Yup that's right i was lucky enough to get to walk around the Pentagon (with an escort of course) it was really a thrill to be there and see the largest office building in the world. Also well worth the fact that i know my info must be in yet another government database of some kind. I didn't get to do any real sight seeing like the White House or the Mall but i did get to meet up with some super sweet local girls one being the very strikingly beautiful Mylan for some nosh and a couple drinks.

My gentlemen callers were all really fun (especially the non birthday boy and my first timer i got to ruin... oh my, oh my) and i wonder is DC always like that? Is everyone always so cheerful and fun to be around or is it because of the new administration in town. Was it all doom and gloom over the last 8 years and now its like in the Wizard Of Oz when the house lands on the Wicked Witch Of The East and the doors open to a beautiful Technicolor other world. Even though it was amazingly cold and i seem to have brought snow with me again, like i did when i went to Boston. I still really enjoyed myself and had to stifle my canary eating grin every time my travel companions were cranky and ready to go home, I could have stayed another week without a second thought.

Oh DC i shall return soon but there is.... no place like home.

Chocolate City!

I'm heading next week the the nations capitol on my first working trip there. I've been to DC once before on a quick jaunt from from NYC for a weekend to see the monuments and visit the Mall. I did visit my senator while i was there. Yeah I'm that girl.

I'm excited because DC is such an interesting city with so much happening these days. I'm also thrilled that im pre-booking my naughty adventures which should make this trip not only fun but solvent, always a winning combo for me. Because i want to come back and get to know to DC often and it being financially rewarding will make that much more possible

I will be traveling with my girlfriends Audrey and Vanessa and what could be more fun then that ... ahh nothing! hot girls, nations capitol, naked fun. yeah its going to be a good time... i can tell feel it in my bones. Okay maybe i will be feeling in in other peoples bones too :D

The Girlfriend Experience?

GFE aka the girlfriend experience its much sought after. For the time contracted you try to connect with your client, be intimate, present and involved in your time together. That the job, that's what i do and i do it well. Sure i can deep throat a cock, fuck you silly and scream like a banshee but that's the easy part, finding the connection with someone in such a short space of time is a skill and one you need, to do what i do.

What i have found is that many potential clients not only expect that kind of experience within the context of the time he has purchased with you, but they now want it outside of it as well. What they want is essentially a defacto relationship of sorts. Not just a few back and forth get to know you emails which I'm always up for, i tend to be sweet but not to personal in those communication because that's how i am. I'm sweet but I'm not to personal with people i don't know well. If you want to get personal then book the time and i will be very personal then..and naked!

I had a client cancel on me recently it turned ugly and fast. Expenses were incurred on my part and the client graciously offered to reimburse me for those, then suddenly balked. It was uncomfortable and he was insulting. He sent me long winded multi paged chastising emails where he worked himself up into a massive froth of total wakadoo-ness. The last paragraph of the last email he sent me he actually had the stones to chide me on how i wasn't sympathetic to his personal financial situation. A situation that was responsible for his need to cancel our confirmed plans or rather it was his relatives personal financial situation, that's what i didn't care enough about. Yep that's right, i didn't care enough or at all about his siblings finances.

Now had this person been a friend of mine, someone i had a personal relationship with or even regular client who i had spent intimate time with i would have had sympathy for him and or his family. But i didn't because he wasn't a friend of mine he was a potential client, someone i had exchanged a few plesentries with off and on for a while until he finally decided to book time with me. He wasn't a friend, we had never broken bread, gone out for a drink or a movie, until a few days before he canceled leaving me with a hotel bill i prepaid i didn't even know his real name, i only know him by a message board handle and he was littlerly enraged that i didn't care about his siblings financial plight. yep that's a whole lotta crazy right there.

I know times are tough for a lot of people, I'm not immune to that, people i care about have been out of work for months, family members have lost retirements, every one i know is tightening their belt these days myself included. I watch the news, i know about the rising unemployment rates, I'm well aware of my Local economy taking a nose dive and how the housing bubble in my area busted over a year ago. I'm not unsympathetic to the general plight.. but... I'm NOT your fucking girlfriend. I offer a service, the girlfriend EXPERIENCE and of you want me to act like your girlfriend you need to PAY me to do it, i don't give that up for free unless i really am your girlfriend and for a potential client and long time hobbyist to throw a temper tantrum because I'm not giving him "free service" well ... whacka-doo is the word i have to repeat.

Within the context of my paid time with you if you want to lament to me about your siblings hardships i will be the most sympathetic person i know how to be, i will empathize with their difficult times if that's how you want to spend your time but until that time, i don't owe you shit.

I'm not your bitch...bitch

A wild beast may wound your body...

Mean girls are abundant in the world of escorts. Frenimies abound. Its hard to find real friends who are hookers, sometimes when you think you have a real friend you don't. In retrospect you realize that's the relationship was draining and unsatisfying for a number of reasons, the least of which you were just desperate for understanding from someone who shares your unique experiences and ultimately got sucked in by some emotional vampire, with issue after issue. In the end you realize you spent the bulk of your "friendship" dealing with, listening to and fixing someone else's problems. I have seen this over and over with other women and i have lived it myself.

Lets face it lots of fucked up women are escorts, this business attracts crazy women. The lifestyle is fast paced and can be excessive, its a very hard business to say grounded in. No real hours, you don't live on a schedule, have no regular income, its feast or famine. Many girls don't have a real home and live out of suitcases, never having a place to call their own, a place to be responsible for. The transient effect makes vulnerable to crazy people down right looped .

I am like a magnet to those types of female friendships. I have to really work hard not to get sucked into situations like that. I fail often. In the real word when a friendship fails its easier to walk away, that's not to say its not painful but walking away is what most people do. You go your way, i go mine. When friendship with a crazy escort fails, you better watch your back. Because someone that has lost touch with the real world such a way as to not even be capable of maintaining the responsibility of a modest place to live, surly isn't capable of walking away from a broken friendship and moving on. No matter how much you hope they will.

They come back over and over like a bad penny... there are long standing feuds. bad feelings that last years, I've seen it destroy people. Eat at them up, hurt them.. good people too.

You might ask why i wrote this, yes i have my own personal saga with a crazy escort friendship that failed and try as i might to find a middle ground a way to coexist without there being constant conflict i find myself at a loss. I'm out of ideas. the animosity on her side is rampant and vile and mean. Ive said nothing about my struggle with this for 7 long months except to seek advise from the 2 people who i trust most. Both have tried to give me sound advice about letting it go moving on. Though how i accomplish that when I'm constantly having to ward off bad juju is beyond me right now.

I found myself tonight thinking back to my teen-aged Buddhist household and trying to employ the techniques i learned then.. like chanting for her happiness. I know it sounds silly but if someone is happy then they are not exactly likely to put in the energy to try to fuck with your life. So i did, i don't know if it did anything except to make me feel a little more in control of the situation. Then i sat down to write this with a clear head .

I guess i just need to be the ball more often.

Bite it

Bite it, originally uploaded by Jenny Demilo.

While in Boston in a snow storm, in a downtown hotel, wearing my lingerie, i decided to play around with my new wireless remote. This is the result.

doesn't it just make you wanna take a bite? of the apple that is!

Know your rights!

I came across this video today and its a good explanation of the 5th amendment and why you should NEVER talk to the police. I mean NEVER. Just shut the fuck up, politely refuse to answer ANY questions and ask for an attorney.

It's long but worth watching. There is very insightful information in this, pay attention!

Hit The Road Jack...

I decided to start touring earlier then i previously planned. I'm going out on the road in a few days with the ever perky Audrey Trouble. I got ancy and twitchy to get started, what can i say. So first stop is Boston, MA. I've never been and though it will be extra cold ( i mean extra, extra cold for a Cali girl like me) i want to try to get out and do at least one Boston-ish kinda thing. I don't want my first trip to be just seeing the 4 walls of my hotel... and a lot of cock. However I have no idea what to do. Should i see something historical, or go to a famous Boston restaurant, reenact the Boston tea party in my panties and fuck me pumps? I'm sure i will figure it out eventually. I know while I'm there I'm gonna take some snappies (that's photos to the unaware) of Heather Jana, local Bostonian hottie for hire, so that will be fun.

After Boston ... Vegas. Always a fun place for me. I'll be there the week after Superbowl plus it's the week of the concrete and tile conventions. That means manly men will abound and those types really do appreciate a dirty girl like myself.

After Vegas I'm home for a little bit and i get to spend some quality time with the pooch... oh and the main man before i head out once again to places unknown and destinations exotic.. okay maybe just destinations Midwestern.

I just hope i dont see a man on the wing of the plane, cuz that would be a nightmare at 20,000 feet.

Entitlement begins its consuming grind

There are rules for ad postings on message boards about hookers. They all vary to some degree or another but there are rules. Escorts must adhere to such rules or risk banishment and lose the ad venue or be subject to ridicule and public scolding by those tho know the rules inside and out. The rules are often hard to find.

I've been noticing a trend on several boards, Hobbyists (johns, tricks, clients whatever you want to call them) posting derogatory insulting comments on a escorts ad thread. The slant seems to be "you charge too much, don't you know there's a recession!!" with a good portion of "you fucking whore" implied though some don't imply the last part but come right out in say it. Classy.

A recession? really? wow i was too busy doing my nails and playing with my perpetually wet snatch to watch the news or pay attention to the world around me to notice, you don't say.

The escorts I KNOW all knew about the recession long before the disgruntled nasty comment backlash started or before the word was uttered on the evening news. Escorts are more tuned in to the ebb and flow of cash flow then any other business people i know. Seriously, they really are.

What amazes me is how these disgruntled message board cry babies think that by brow beating some escort trying to make a living by hanging her shingle out (the ad thread) will work. As if suddenly the lady is going to say oh yeas Mr. anonymous troll let me give you my services for free because i know how hard it must be for YOU out in the real world. As if WE don't live in the real world too. Its the sense entitlement i don't get. Not the disappointment that they cant afford to pay for prime pussy, i understand the disappointment. I get disappointed too when i cant afford something i want. I either forgo it or save up for it. I don't go into Tiffany's and bitch the sales people out because theres a recession on and they should lower their fucking prices because I NEED to wear that bracelet. When in actuality i don't. I can easily not wear it, just as these message board shit talkers can easily not fuck a whore.

They feel entitled to publicly bitch and moan, they try to get other shit talkers to join the fray, they try to get the lady to join the fray. If she does try to defend herself they further attempt to say "see that nasty whore doesn't deserve to get paid, cuz shes got a the nerve to defend her business" oh and they bash any male who thinks being a loud mouthed rude prick on a message board makes all hobbyists look bad.

I see this going a couple ways, its going to get worse as more men who used to be able to easily afford to screw escorts realize that they can less and less if at all, so the disgruntled will become more vocal. I also see the ladies not sitting back and taking it, its harder out there for everyone and yes that includes escorts. When you get limited access to advertise and that advertisement is sullied by some angry little man and his personal financial issues, it very likely will lead to more ladies not taking the high road and waiting for next weeks ad to go smooth but to taking on these shit talkers head to head.

So its going to get a lot nastier...mark...my...words...