The Porn Star Experience

Apparently i can provide a porn star experience. Now i know i usually tout myself as a GFE. I get personal and intimate with my clients. I'm responsive and present. Its what i do and I'm pretty damn good at it. Oh my last trip to Albany i was booked by a new client who was giving me to himself for his birthday. I wouldn't call him a "hobbyist" just a young guy looking to treat himself to some hassle free Jenny lovin'. The appointment almost feel though when when he saw on my FAQ's that i was a former Pro Domme as being dominated wasn't what this young man had on his agenda, as i was to find out. I assured him that there was a reason i was no longer a Domme and if he would like to be the one "large and in charge" in our encounter that i was cool with that. He took the leap and booked the appointment.

He arrived at my hotel, all 6'5" of him and i was quite pleased as its slightly unusual to have such a strapping young man cross my path, especially in Albany. I was even more pleased after the small talk was over and i was naked bent over my hotel bed getting slammed fucked by my new friend and his giant cock.

His telling me he was interested in being in charge was my cue to be the submissive fuck doll i knew he wanted. I don't always get into that kinda of session but i did this time. It was a bang brothers video reenacted right there in my upstate NY hotel room. No pussy was left un-pounded, no cock was left un-sucked, no face was left un-fucked and no stone was left unturned. I was properly screwed buy a cute guy with a large throbbing hot cock and i liked it.

The best part was that this young man was such a sweet guy, cute, and oh so tall. I just adore it when a sweet, respectful, NICE guy can tun you into a well fucked tart... in no time flat.

Wet, Naked And Knocked Up

Shot naked pictures of Little Blondie over the weekend (i know shes not very blonde right now). My make up artist assistant and favorite girl is gonna have a baby. I'm excited that any day new a new member of my extended family will be born!

oh and I swear shes a virgin, you can tell from this picture!

I might be a Whore but I'm not a Hole

The email came in like any other, a response to an ad i had placed in a city, in another state i was visiting. However i hadn't received one like this in a while...

"need you by 9:00 pm tonight. if too much bullshit, foreget about it."

Well where do i sign up! emails like this usually just go straight into the trash because lets be honest I'm not a hole don't i don't enjoy being treated as one. That's exactly what this email does, let me break it down.

1. no salutation or greeting- devoid of using my name ( to further dehumanize me)
2. a demanding i need you by 9pm tonight inquiry (with no mention of screening info)
3. "if its to much bullshit..." (again implies screening with be an issue, in fact it implies everything will be an issue)
4. miss spelling of "forget" (to much trouble to even run a spell check)

Those are just the glaringly obvious red flags on this play. This goes deeper, there are two types of guys that send these kinds of emails and its my job to figure which camp i think this little piece of email joy fits into.

1. socially unaware - has ZERO idea of how to speak to women let alone escorts.
2. men who hate women

lets take the socially unaware guys. He sends an email with no social graces because he has none. No greeting, no reference to anything i request on my booking form, no info about himself, no reference actually reading my site, he probably didn't. He saw a picture, he grunted and sent the email (well at least he didn't call) If i thought the email was in this camp i could send him back an email asking for more info draw him out and see where could lead, it could turn into a successful appointment but id be aware meeting this guy in person, he would also have no social graces face to face.

Men who hate women. He hates women and treats them disrespectfully even in an email because they are all whores... yanno just like his mother. To him escorts are just a hole and you never have to be kind or polite to a hole. You don't read a holes website to get a feel from it to see if you are a good fit, cuz all you wanna do is fit your dick in a hole. You don't politely ask if you are available on short notice by 9pm this evening because you are in a tight schedule, you send a one line demand and add the caveat that "if" its to much bullshit "foreget" about it and you don't even take the time to run a spell check over it, i mean why? you're emailing a hole not a person.

It was pretty easy for me to see this email for what it was immediately and which group Mr Charm belonged to and i responded accordingly - i refuse to be treated like a hole and i will weed your dumb ass out in a heartbeat. I might be a whore but I'm not a hole and i still have and always will have the choice as to who i will share my time and body with. As much as that chaps the women haters hides i don't care, even us whores have the right to refuse them and we do... all the time.

At The Mirage

Jenn in Vegas, originally uploaded by Jenny Demilo.

I went to Vegas earlier this month and got a room in the newly renovated Mirage, for a super deal I might add. I took a couple of quick snaps with my remote as i always travel with my camera. I should have taken more because the room had this retro swagger to it. Maybe i will get the Mirage again when im next in Vegas... in September.

But, but, but .. you're a whore!

So I've been reading the hooker message boards and zeroing in on this months latest trend. Men upset that the "whores" wont service them. But you're a whore you HAVE to see anyone who will pay you. You don't have choices because you're a whore. You cant refuse me for being a entitled ass hat because you're a WHORE

whore whore whore whore!

I'm quite sure i know what it is a do for a living, i mean i am the one fucking strangers in hotels for greenbacks but thanks for the reminder. The real question is, what is up with these guys? Have they been refused by the "whores" a lot? doubtful, my guess is they are the guys who when they were young men maybe in high-school maybe when thy were a little older who's greatest fear with women was/is... rejection.

They feel powerless, they are not comfortable engaging women in a real way and have eventually found themselves in the pay for play game. Because they feel that when they pay they have the power and the fact that a WHORE could reject them is one of their greatest fears. To get rejected by a women who gets paid to be there is so scary to them that they go on a rampage on message boards to try to get though to these whores and their supporters they they whores shouldn't have a choice so that they will never be in the position to be rejected by one. So they act out anonymously on message boards because if they used their real"handles" they whores might not see them so they have to do it from behind a mask and berate the whores, incite them men who generally like the whores and stomp their little feet and gnash their little teeth.

if it didn't get so tiresome or wasn't so pathetic, I'd find it funny.

it can be hurtful no matter how thick your skin is to be denigrated by a segment of a community who really should be more supportive since they engage in the same activities be it on the other side of the fence. Sex workers are often terribly put down by society we are not accepted and its disheartening when we are not accepted by our own. it can grate on you and often does.

I'm sure I'm just being an uppity whore.

I once had a friend

I once had a friend, who's a "hobbyist" we hung out, i liked him, he portrayed himself to be although at times a little immature for his advanced, age a nice guy who's intentions and heart was in the right place. I couldn't have been more wrong. It often takes a crisis to really see what someone is made of. You learn more about people about how they act when they are confronted with an emergency then you do sitting at dinner after dinner with them. Call it the stress reflex if you like.

This friend had a personal crisis and i saw a side of him i never thought i would. Mean, unethical, lying, lashing out. It made me sad, but it also made it impossible for me to continue to be active friends with him. I cant be around that kind of toxic poison. I was also a little upset with myself for being taken in but his outward facade.

In this business we often want to connect with people who understand and except what we do for a living. Its hard lying to the people around you all the time so we seek out like minded people, this is more often then not a HUGE mistake. It has been with me on several occasions. I am not immune to wanting to connect with people who share my experiences and my free spirited attitude.

In this case this "friend"has passively aggressively made attempts to make me feel bad, hurt my feelings, bait me into arguing with him on various message boards and even backhandedly threaten my business model - wtf.

I will continue to ignore him as best i can. its not always easy but i will try. Maybe he will buy himself a young pretty girlfriend soon and he wont have time to bother me anymore.

or get run over by a bus... oh a girl can dream.

Clients 1-8. Im hitting Albany 22-26th

I'm going back out on the road.

I'm trying to arrange my life so i don't have to work here at my home base and by work i mean dirty, nasty, fuck and suck work. I'd like to do that just on the road and keep my time here at home in beautiful Los Angeles just me working on my photo career and then if escort work comes my way, so be it but i don't want to have to chase escort work on my home turf anymore. Those are lofty aspirations i know especially in these economic times but they are my aspirations none the less.

I'm heading out to Albany NY, that's right Spitzer country to see clients 1-8 and maybe 10-100 who knows... i could get lucky. I have never been to NY's state capital before as the last time i was planning on going i had to last minute cancel for family reasons. I'm excited about the trip but not about the air travel. Seems unless you own your own jet air travel from LA to Albany SUCKS ASS. Yep layovers, bad airlines, long travel times. So i will travel at night, try to sleep with the aid of magic sleep inducing pills and hope for the best.

A friend of mine Heather should be close to the area during a couple days of my trip June 22nd-26th so i get to hang out with her, that should be fun as shes a rad chick. I'm also hoping for another friend to come visit though i think that ones a long shot because getting to me all the way in NY when hes no where near it will take much effort. So as much as id like to play a little on this trip i will be working most of the time. Its also supposed to rain the whole time i there. Just as it gets to look like summer here in LA i go to NY where is rainy and gloomy. it figures.

I'm planning some other new and exciting summer destinations, since those aren't set in stone and will take a little funding and planning I'm not ready to announce it yet. But i will soon....

Lick My Face

Lick, originally uploaded by Jenny Demilo.

I was lucky enough to photograph the wickedly beautiful and super cool Ms Justine over the weekend along with her little pet "K" we had a lot of fun running K though her paces and me documenting it all for Ms Justine's website

All i do is point and shoot when the girls are this pretty. Okay maybe i do just a little more, but not much... i swear!

I shoot myself

Chicago2, originally uploaded by Jenny Demilo.

When i have down time on tour, i try to take a few snaps to keep my portfolio fresh. This was taken in a hotel in Chicago last week between bookings.

For those of you who last minute cancelled... see what you missed motherfuckers ;)

I am sure they are sour

The Las Vegas Weekly loves me - I did a interview with them and it came out rather nicely. I was able to not just spotlight myself but to give a little good press to this odd subculture i found myself in for the past few years. You never know when you do something like this how its going to turn out. If your long ass interview is going to end up a tiny sound bite or if they are going to paint you in a negative light, take a small statement out of context with the intent of pounding your round hole into their square peg, so i was rather happy with this result. I consider this quite an accomplishment I'm proud of it- i came off funny, articulate and interesting. Because that's what i am- big ups to the reporter Jennifer Grafiada for making me comfortable enough to spill my guts.

What i wasn't happy with was the amount of "sour grapes" my from people who were supposedly colleagues in this world. Yeah i expected a few haters, but from people who basically... hate me, not people who are all kissy kissy nice to my face. It was a bit of a surprise to see or rather it was a bit of a surprise to hear as the back channel chatter came around to me. That's right fuckfaces i have ears in the back of my head, i know what you said.

oh well for all those lovelies who took this opportunity to slam me behind my back like the bitch ass cowards that they are ....

You can suck it!