But, but, but .. you're a whore!

So I've been reading the hooker message boards and zeroing in on this months latest trend. Men upset that the "whores" wont service them. But you're a whore you HAVE to see anyone who will pay you. You don't have choices because you're a whore. You cant refuse me for being a entitled ass hat because you're a WHORE

whore whore whore whore!

I'm quite sure i know what it is a do for a living, i mean i am the one fucking strangers in hotels for greenbacks but thanks for the reminder. The real question is, what is up with these guys? Have they been refused by the "whores" a lot? doubtful, my guess is they are the guys who when they were young men maybe in high-school maybe when thy were a little older who's greatest fear with women was/is... rejection.

They feel powerless, they are not comfortable engaging women in a real way and have eventually found themselves in the pay for play game. Because they feel that when they pay they have the power and the fact that a WHORE could reject them is one of their greatest fears. To get rejected by a women who gets paid to be there is so scary to them that they go on a rampage on message boards to try to get though to these whores and their supporters they they whores shouldn't have a choice so that they will never be in the position to be rejected by one. So they act out anonymously on message boards because if they used their real"handles" they whores might not see them so they have to do it from behind a mask and berate the whores, incite them men who generally like the whores and stomp their little feet and gnash their little teeth.

if it didn't get so tiresome or wasn't so pathetic, I'd find it funny.

it can be hurtful no matter how thick your skin is to be denigrated by a segment of a community who really should be more supportive since they engage in the same activities be it on the other side of the fence. Sex workers are often terribly put down by society we are not accepted and its disheartening when we are not accepted by our own. it can grate on you and often does.

I'm sure I'm just being an uppity whore.

I once had a friend

I once had a friend, who's a "hobbyist" we hung out, i liked him, he portrayed himself to be although at times a little immature for his advanced, age a nice guy who's intentions and heart was in the right place. I couldn't have been more wrong. It often takes a crisis to really see what someone is made of. You learn more about people about how they act when they are confronted with an emergency then you do sitting at dinner after dinner with them. Call it the stress reflex if you like.

This friend had a personal crisis and i saw a side of him i never thought i would. Mean, unethical, lying, lashing out. It made me sad, but it also made it impossible for me to continue to be active friends with him. I cant be around that kind of toxic poison. I was also a little upset with myself for being taken in but his outward facade.

In this business we often want to connect with people who understand and except what we do for a living. Its hard lying to the people around you all the time so we seek out like minded people, this is more often then not a HUGE mistake. It has been with me on several occasions. I am not immune to wanting to connect with people who share my experiences and my free spirited attitude.

In this case this "friend"has passively aggressively made attempts to make me feel bad, hurt my feelings, bait me into arguing with him on various message boards and even backhandedly threaten my business model - wtf.

I will continue to ignore him as best i can. its not always easy but i will try. Maybe he will buy himself a young pretty girlfriend soon and he wont have time to bother me anymore.

or get run over by a bus... oh a girl can dream.

Clients 1-8. Im hitting Albany 22-26th

I'm going back out on the road.

I'm trying to arrange my life so i don't have to work here at my home base and by work i mean dirty, nasty, fuck and suck work. I'd like to do that just on the road and keep my time here at home in beautiful Los Angeles just me working on my photo career and then if escort work comes my way, so be it but i don't want to have to chase escort work on my home turf anymore. Those are lofty aspirations i know especially in these economic times but they are my aspirations none the less.

I'm heading out to Albany NY, that's right Spitzer country to see clients 1-8 and maybe 10-100 who knows... i could get lucky. I have never been to NY's state capital before as the last time i was planning on going i had to last minute cancel for family reasons. I'm excited about the trip but not about the air travel. Seems unless you own your own jet air travel from LA to Albany SUCKS ASS. Yep layovers, bad airlines, long travel times. So i will travel at night, try to sleep with the aid of magic sleep inducing pills and hope for the best.

A friend of mine Heather should be close to the area during a couple days of my trip June 22nd-26th so i get to hang out with her, that should be fun as shes a rad chick. I'm also hoping for another friend to come visit though i think that ones a long shot because getting to me all the way in NY when hes no where near it will take much effort. So as much as id like to play a little on this trip i will be working most of the time. Its also supposed to rain the whole time i there. Just as it gets to look like summer here in LA i go to NY where is rainy and gloomy. it figures.

I'm planning some other new and exciting summer destinations, since those aren't set in stone and will take a little funding and planning I'm not ready to announce it yet. But i will soon....

Lick My Face

Lick, originally uploaded by Jenny Demilo.

I was lucky enough to photograph the wickedly beautiful and super cool Ms Justine over the weekend along with her little pet "K" we had a lot of fun running K though her paces and me documenting it all for Ms Justine's website

All i do is point and shoot when the girls are this pretty. Okay maybe i do just a little more, but not much... i swear!

I shoot myself

Chicago2, originally uploaded by Jenny Demilo.

When i have down time on tour, i try to take a few snaps to keep my portfolio fresh. This was taken in a hotel in Chicago last week between bookings.

For those of you who last minute cancelled... see what you missed motherfuckers ;)

I am sure they are sour

The Las Vegas Weekly loves me - I did a interview with them and it came out rather nicely. I was able to not just spotlight myself but to give a little good press to this odd subculture i found myself in for the past few years. You never know when you do something like this how its going to turn out. If your long ass interview is going to end up a tiny sound bite or if they are going to paint you in a negative light, take a small statement out of context with the intent of pounding your round hole into their square peg, so i was rather happy with this result. I consider this quite an accomplishment I'm proud of it- i came off funny, articulate and interesting. Because that's what i am- big ups to the reporter Jennifer Grafiada for making me comfortable enough to spill my guts.

What i wasn't happy with was the amount of "sour grapes" my from people who were supposedly colleagues in this world. Yeah i expected a few haters, but from people who basically... hate me, not people who are all kissy kissy nice to my face. It was a bit of a surprise to see or rather it was a bit of a surprise to hear as the back channel chatter came around to me. That's right fuckfaces i have ears in the back of my head, i know what you said.

oh well for all those lovelies who took this opportunity to slam me behind my back like the bitch ass cowards that they are ....

You can suck it!

Play with Avery

Play with Avery, originally uploaded by Jenny Demilo.

Shot in DC May 09- Avery is hot, tall and surprisingly down to earth. I was lucky enough to shoot her in DC on my last trip. I plan on hanging out with her again when im in DC cuz shes so cool.

Julissa...

A sex worker in Boston is dead. She was killed by a potential client who's it is believed has been robbing ladies in Boston for a while. When this young women fought back he shot her in the chest several times and left her for dead and die she did. This was in a nice hotel in the Back Bay in Boston. Boston is a city I've been to on tour and will go back to.

Some specifics: she advertised "massages" on Craigslist, she was a young and beautiful girl and by all accounts this was her secret life. Her name was Julissa Brisman.

They have connected this murder to two other robberies (one just a couple days after he killed Julissa) though i know this man has robbed more then just two women. Hes been on the radar of ladies in the area for a while, he is young attractive blond man of about 6 feet tall. And according to a CIA profiler i saw on the news hes on a "spree" he wont stop until caught.

Over a year ago really closer to two years now, in California there was a guy who was beating, robbing, choking out countless sex workers and leaving them for dead. He finally seceded in killing a girl in orange county. I personally knew one girl who was badly injured and knew though the web two others who were attacked and beaten. It wasn't really on the news, the local industry message boards didn't seem to really care and kept removing warnings about the guy with some lame excuse about protecting their own liability. Meanwhile girls were being hurt.

The guy was finally caught.

When the Boston story broke, It was the lead in teaser for my NBC LOCAL 11pm News here in L.A. The actual story was about 15 minutes into the evening news after the first break. They didn't say the girls were sex workers they said they put "racy" ads up on Craigslist. So that's how the media here in LA was first framing the story.

I found it strange that it was on my local news but not unhappy about the word getting out. I don't know why this story is getting national headlines, i don't know if the media is more tolerant of sex workers because in the last two years we've been more public. There's a major studio movie coming out about sex workers, (The Girlfriend Experience) Showtime had their second season of Secret Diary Of A Call Girl. Not to mention there are interviews and articles popping up showing sex work in a more positive light and not always as drugged out street walkers with pimps who are wearing their childhood abuse on their sleeve. Oh and of course prop K in S.F. That brought a lot of attention to the sex workers as normal people movement.

The guy in Boston was likely targeting sex workers because he felt that they wouldn't be able to go to the police. Also he had access to women alone he could over power. It's what we all fear and why we have safety precautions, screening process and safe calls. We have to know who it is we are seeing, there are many men out there who balk and are uncomfortable giving up their personal info and many who will berate you for just asking for it, they don't understand why they need to give up their info just for the opportunity to spend time with a pretty girl but Julissa's tragic death underscores why we ask for it.

Our lives could depend on it.

Happy Zombie Jesus Day!

Think about it!

The city that never sleeps...

So I'm heading east again. Washington DC and then my first escort adventure to wonderful New York City. Its true that i have spent time in Manhattan, much time actually. I considered moving there once back in my advertising days but ultimately decided i couldn't leave sunny and beautiful California. Its a city with a lot of energy and i shouldn't have waited this long to make my return.

I'm excited about returning to DC its a city filled with happy people these days, everyone seems to be in a good mood and that is a very good thing for a girl like me. Making happy people happier is easier then making cranky grumps happy. I will then work my ass off (literally) to make as many DC men as happy as i can. I'm nervous about NYC, I've never worked there, there are tons of girls i that city peddling here wares and i think there's a chance i could get lost int he shuffle. It costs me money everyday to be on tour, i have hotel expenses and back at home i have specialized dog care for my special needs pooch. so i have pretty lofty goals for myself, work wise. It will be interesting to see how it all works out.

I'm also hoping to shoot a few ladies while i am there as i never travel without my camera. Look out DC nd NYC im on my way....